<-- our sweet Lilly when she was a day old. Lately I have been embracing motherhood & everything about it. It is such a gift! I feel like raising my kids & teaching them what is right & loving them is going to be the most if not the most important responsibility & privilege I will ever receive. I admit I did not always think like this; there have been days where I found myself annoyed as a stay-at-home Mom, feeling "tied down" by all my responsibilities. Those were wrong feelings. Thankfully God changes hearts as only He can, & now I will never take for granted each day He gives me as a stay-at-home Mom. Sure I still have moments when I just want a break from it all.. but I want to soak up every second with Lilly, because before I know it she will be a teen then an adult and I will never get these moments back. Sounds dramatic but it is true, even though she is only almost 3. I stressed a ton when I first had Lilly; I'm sure every new Mom stresses, but add a husband who was deployed for the birth of his daughter including her first 6 months, and the newness of being a first time Mom, and that is a recipe for extreme anxiety & frustration. Not saying stressing is wrong, but it made me not enjoy those new moments with Lilly as much as if I hadn't. This time, with our baby boy arriving in 5 short weeks, I am really determined with God's help to enjoy EVERY SINGLE moment with our new baby- including the sleepless nights, the continuous crying, the painful moments of nursing, the pure chaos when big sister cannot sit still & I am on my last string- every moment, I want to cherish. Tonight I laid down next to Lilly in her bed for a few minutes since she asked me to, & I still can't believe how much she is changing. She is becoming a little girl, not a baby anymore. Some days that makes me sad, but most days I am loving every part of this new stage she is in, especially how much she talks to me now & how smart she is. I know she will make the best older sister! =) Here are a few pics of Lilly that I just love over the years:
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