These past few weeks have been a flurry of mixed emotions for me, & I will admit I am a little ashamed to post how I have been feeling because I am not that proud of it. But hey, no one is perfect, so I figured I'd document these feelings as well as the positive ones I've been sharing on this blog. Since Lilly's seizure, it seems like I've been stressed out to the max, worrying if it will happen again, combined with the excitement, nervousness, & apprehension of our little blessing baby arriving NEXT MONTH (can't believe it is already next month!) Oh, and might I add, the frustration of being pregnant. As wonderful as it is being pregnant & having the most amazing privilege of carrying a human being inside of me, I probably won't be the first to admit that I hate being pregnant. I just do. I hate feeling uncomfortable this last trimester & as much as I wish I would just suck it up and love every moment, I haven't been. So go ahead, judge me, roll your eyes, I am just not one of those women who enjoy blowing up and being uncomfortable, BUT I will say that it is entirely worth every second when I see our little boy for the first time! I have been trying to do Cardio & resistance training at least 30 minutes every day since the beginning, trying to stay fit, and I guess gaining a total of 16 pounds so far isn't bad at all. It's not all about appearance I know, but it is really uncomfortable lately, especially at night! My poor little family, having to deal with my occasional bouts of annoyed meltdowns but thankfully, next month is just around the corner & soon we will be holding our brand new son for the first time, & these past 9 months of it all will be a memory that I am sure I will miss one day. =)
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